Ok, so weigh day was last Thursday... and it was a bad result noticeable by the absence of any post.
I don't understand it. I was SO good all week, and yet when I jumped on the Wii to weigh in I had put on 1kg / 2lbs!
I was talking to my Aunty about it, and she said that it's probably because I am building up muscle and it weighs more than fat. I get that, I understand it... but I can't even put it down to that.
I've not been exercising!
Shame on me for that... but honestly, when I've cut out potatoes, rice, pasta, juice, coke and even last week chocolate - how do you put ON weight?
ARGH!
It makes me so frustrated! Why do I even bother?!?!
I went away for the weekend to see my boyfriend this weekend... disappointed in myself, I ate Burger King twice and had three cans of coke. I regret it now and that's certainly not going to help me get a better result this week. So why did I do it?
I really need to learn to not get so disheartened and slip backwards but use it to motivate me to try harder.
I'd like to say that I will get up early in the morning and go for a big long walk before work... but let's be honest. I probably won't.
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Tuesday, 22 March 2011
Thursday, 10 March 2011
It's weigh day - No.7
I am really hating myself right now. I've had a mixed week, I've been good with all my main meals (weekend excluded), but I have had far too much chocolate. I'm finding that hard to let go if I'm honest.
But, I wasn't entirely sure that I had been bad enough to have seen what I saw this morning.
GAIN - 1.5KG
Shit.
Bollocks.
Fuck.
I'm really upset with myself. Why can't I get my fat arse out and walking of a morning? Why can't I resist the urge to buy a piece of chocolate when I go into a shop?
So, that means in almost 8 weeks, I have lost a grand freaking total of just 3.3kgs. That's nothing, less than 500 grams a week.
This week, I really must be more dedicated. I want to lose 3kgs next week to make up for it.
I really really really am hating myself right now.
But, then why am I so surprised? Did I really think that a couple of lentil curries and salads would make up for the junk I ate at the weekend or the chocolates I ate during the week? I guess I had kind of deluded myself into thinking that. I used to not think at all about what I ate, and have maintained the weight I am now for the best part of a decade I guess. So, I figured given that I have changed sooooo much, I would still lose. Naive. Stupid. Fucked up.
Urgh.
But, I wasn't entirely sure that I had been bad enough to have seen what I saw this morning.
GAIN - 1.5KG
Shit.
Bollocks.
Fuck.
I'm really upset with myself. Why can't I get my fat arse out and walking of a morning? Why can't I resist the urge to buy a piece of chocolate when I go into a shop?
So, that means in almost 8 weeks, I have lost a grand freaking total of just 3.3kgs. That's nothing, less than 500 grams a week.
This week, I really must be more dedicated. I want to lose 3kgs next week to make up for it.
I really really really am hating myself right now.
But, then why am I so surprised? Did I really think that a couple of lentil curries and salads would make up for the junk I ate at the weekend or the chocolates I ate during the week? I guess I had kind of deluded myself into thinking that. I used to not think at all about what I ate, and have maintained the weight I am now for the best part of a decade I guess. So, I figured given that I have changed sooooo much, I would still lose. Naive. Stupid. Fucked up.
Urgh.
Tuesday, 22 February 2011
Food snapshot; yesterday and today
I didn't weigh in yesterday as I said I would Sunday night. I already have my graph and weekly targets set for Thursdays, so it's best just to stick to that and suck it up.
Anyway, I did do something I said I would. Yay me. I took some pictures of what I'm eating.
So, for lunch yesterday I had leftover chicken that was roasted in the oven with sweet potato, onion, garlic cloves and cherry tomatoes. I also steamed some green veg and a few carrots to go alongside it.
For lunch today I had a warm chicken and pumpkin salad. I just roasted a couple of slices of butternut pumpkin (or squash as they call it in the UK) with some pan fried chicken thigh fillets, lettuce mix, red onion and beetroot. I also splashed on a little of my fave salad dressing which I make myself (honey, white balsamic vinegar and extra virgin olive oil). 'Twas yummy.
As you can see from both pictures, I love pepper :)
Not sure what I will have for dinner tonight. I should try and be organised and cut up some veg again, but I might just have what I had for lunch. It was quick and easy to make once the pumpkin and chicken were cooked, which was made even quicker as I left the peel on the pumpkin. Some people don't like that, but the extra texture is cool with me.
I did go for a 30 minute walk yesterday, but I need to make that a regular occurrence and also for longer periods of time. I have been super tired lately (not sure what's wrong with me, I slept for more than 10 hours last night and I am still tired!), but one of these days when I get up at 7am to turn off my alarm I will actually stay up, put my sneakers on, my headphones in and head out the door for an hours walk.
Anyway, I did do something I said I would. Yay me. I took some pictures of what I'm eating.
So, for lunch yesterday I had leftover chicken that was roasted in the oven with sweet potato, onion, garlic cloves and cherry tomatoes. I also steamed some green veg and a few carrots to go alongside it.
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| Lunch yesterday |
For lunch today I had a warm chicken and pumpkin salad. I just roasted a couple of slices of butternut pumpkin (or squash as they call it in the UK) with some pan fried chicken thigh fillets, lettuce mix, red onion and beetroot. I also splashed on a little of my fave salad dressing which I make myself (honey, white balsamic vinegar and extra virgin olive oil). 'Twas yummy.
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| Lunch today |
As you can see from both pictures, I love pepper :)
Not sure what I will have for dinner tonight. I should try and be organised and cut up some veg again, but I might just have what I had for lunch. It was quick and easy to make once the pumpkin and chicken were cooked, which was made even quicker as I left the peel on the pumpkin. Some people don't like that, but the extra texture is cool with me.
I did go for a 30 minute walk yesterday, but I need to make that a regular occurrence and also for longer periods of time. I have been super tired lately (not sure what's wrong with me, I slept for more than 10 hours last night and I am still tired!), but one of these days when I get up at 7am to turn off my alarm I will actually stay up, put my sneakers on, my headphones in and head out the door for an hours walk.
Wednesday, 30 June 2010
Baby talk
Another hiatus. Which means more months down the drain where I haven't actually done anything super pro-active about getting my weight down.
But, I am much more motivated than ever now because the BF and I had the discussion about our future etc and have decided that we will start to seriously try for a baby next year. He said was ready right now, but we both know... well, I know... that there is no point actively trying now before I have my operation.
That said, we are not using any birth control now and I feel like we're moving in the right direction.
I turn 30 in the first part of next year, and I seriously don't want to be still having this same discussion with myself then ("Come on, you have to get serious. You can do this. Let's start for real tomorrow"). So, I've set myself some absolute deadlines.
By the 1st of December, I want to have lost at least 18kgs and then I can ring up my GP and get him to schedule the specialist appointment for me again. I can then tell the specialist that I have lost half of what I need to lose, and can we schedule the operation.
Given that we are working with the NHS, I figured by the time that I get to have this appointment with the specialist and by the time he schedules the operation, it will be around March next year and by then (1st of April) I will have lost the remaining 18kgs.
So, I need to lose the first 18kgs in 5 months and the second 18kgs in 4 months.
Perhaps the first 18kgs will come off much quicker than the second lot, in which case I will just move the schedule around. OMG imagine if I could do it even quicker than that!! There's 24 weeks left til the start of December, so losing 18kgs seems entirely possible, right?? That's less than 1kg per week. I can do that.
Basically, as soon as I get the first 18kgs off I am making that call.
Also, my sister is moving to London until December soon. She knows about the baby plans and is super super excited and has promised to help me and make the time she stays just like boot camp. It's just what I need! We are going to join some sports teams, go swimming and do early morning walks.
No more coke either. It's been 6 days.
Tomorrow I will do a weigh-in and get shit down on paper so to speak. I am sure I will have put on weight since the last time I blogged. Urgh. But.....
I'm back baby!
But, I am much more motivated than ever now because the BF and I had the discussion about our future etc and have decided that we will start to seriously try for a baby next year. He said was ready right now, but we both know... well, I know... that there is no point actively trying now before I have my operation.
That said, we are not using any birth control now and I feel like we're moving in the right direction.
I turn 30 in the first part of next year, and I seriously don't want to be still having this same discussion with myself then ("Come on, you have to get serious. You can do this. Let's start for real tomorrow"). So, I've set myself some absolute deadlines.
By the 1st of December, I want to have lost at least 18kgs and then I can ring up my GP and get him to schedule the specialist appointment for me again. I can then tell the specialist that I have lost half of what I need to lose, and can we schedule the operation.
Given that we are working with the NHS, I figured by the time that I get to have this appointment with the specialist and by the time he schedules the operation, it will be around March next year and by then (1st of April) I will have lost the remaining 18kgs.
So, I need to lose the first 18kgs in 5 months and the second 18kgs in 4 months.
Perhaps the first 18kgs will come off much quicker than the second lot, in which case I will just move the schedule around. OMG imagine if I could do it even quicker than that!! There's 24 weeks left til the start of December, so losing 18kgs seems entirely possible, right?? That's less than 1kg per week. I can do that.
Basically, as soon as I get the first 18kgs off I am making that call.
Also, my sister is moving to London until December soon. She knows about the baby plans and is super super excited and has promised to help me and make the time she stays just like boot camp. It's just what I need! We are going to join some sports teams, go swimming and do early morning walks.
No more coke either. It's been 6 days.
Tomorrow I will do a weigh-in and get shit down on paper so to speak. I am sure I will have put on weight since the last time I blogged. Urgh. But.....
I'm back baby!
Tuesday, 6 April 2010
The biggest loser and other bits
I've been thinking a lot about weight and my PCOS lately.
I've had my eyes closed about my PCOS pretty much since I got diagnosed. I've not taken it seriously, and it is serious. Very serious.
Although I'm very involved in raising awareness about PCOS and being an advocate for other women like me, I think I've used that as a scapegoat. I've taken PCOS seriously, but not so far as it comes to my own health and well being. I had a bit of a lightbulb moment the other day, listening to one of the world's top 25 experts in PCOS in the world.
These are some of the long term health risks: type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease and endometrial cancer. PCOS is also linked to sleep apnea and breast cancer. The breast cancer link scared me and was something I was totally unaware of (unlike the other risks which I've known about). Breast cancer itself is not a long term risk of PCOS like type 2 diabetes is, but breast cancer is linked to infertility. PCOS is one of the leading causes of infertility. It's scary.
Fertility has also been something thats increasingly on my mind. I know that your fertility takes a steep dive at 35, and at 29 I can hear the tick, but I thought I still had time on my side (despite not being married or even engaged yet). The speaker I mentioned above mentioned the big 3-0. At age 30 your fertility takes its first nose dive.
In 2010, I just have to do it. I HAVE, HAVE, HAVE to get my BMI under 30 this year. I turn 30 in 11 months. I really want to have had my operation by my next birthday so I can seriously start trying to conceive.
I've been going to the gym a lot recently. Last week I went three times; I did two cardio sessions and a big swim session. I'm really chuffed to bits with myself, and am remembering how much I do enjoy exercise. Especially swimming, I love being in the water. I'm set to go and do some cardio again in the morning, and although I'm dreading getting up that bit earlier I know how good I'll feel when I walk out with my sweaty brow and red face. I need to keep that up. I've made myself promise that I'll go three times a week at least.
I'm not there yet mentally. I am still bingeing, although this is getting less which I am pleased with. But overall, I'm making better choices and I'm moving a LOT more than I have in a very long time. I can really feel myself getting there though. I've got a long way to go to get my head in the right space; the space where I'm making the right choices 98% of the time and seeing the kgs drop on the scales.
I'm going to get there though, I'm on the right road now. It's started. My head is out of the sand. At last.
Anyway, I'm watching the latest season of Biggest Loser Australia online, and there's a woman on there with PCOS which I was really excited to see, she's gone on the show to lose weight so she can conceive. I'm a bit worried though, as would love to follow along with her journey, but she's in the bottom two. So I will have to watch episode two now to make sure she doesn't get booted out!
The Biggest Loser Aus 5 - Episode # 1 / Part 1
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I've had my eyes closed about my PCOS pretty much since I got diagnosed. I've not taken it seriously, and it is serious. Very serious.
Although I'm very involved in raising awareness about PCOS and being an advocate for other women like me, I think I've used that as a scapegoat. I've taken PCOS seriously, but not so far as it comes to my own health and well being. I had a bit of a lightbulb moment the other day, listening to one of the world's top 25 experts in PCOS in the world.
These are some of the long term health risks: type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease and endometrial cancer. PCOS is also linked to sleep apnea and breast cancer. The breast cancer link scared me and was something I was totally unaware of (unlike the other risks which I've known about). Breast cancer itself is not a long term risk of PCOS like type 2 diabetes is, but breast cancer is linked to infertility. PCOS is one of the leading causes of infertility. It's scary.
Fertility has also been something thats increasingly on my mind. I know that your fertility takes a steep dive at 35, and at 29 I can hear the tick, but I thought I still had time on my side (despite not being married or even engaged yet). The speaker I mentioned above mentioned the big 3-0. At age 30 your fertility takes its first nose dive.
In 2010, I just have to do it. I HAVE, HAVE, HAVE to get my BMI under 30 this year. I turn 30 in 11 months. I really want to have had my operation by my next birthday so I can seriously start trying to conceive.
I've been going to the gym a lot recently. Last week I went three times; I did two cardio sessions and a big swim session. I'm really chuffed to bits with myself, and am remembering how much I do enjoy exercise. Especially swimming, I love being in the water. I'm set to go and do some cardio again in the morning, and although I'm dreading getting up that bit earlier I know how good I'll feel when I walk out with my sweaty brow and red face. I need to keep that up. I've made myself promise that I'll go three times a week at least.
I'm not there yet mentally. I am still bingeing, although this is getting less which I am pleased with. But overall, I'm making better choices and I'm moving a LOT more than I have in a very long time. I can really feel myself getting there though. I've got a long way to go to get my head in the right space; the space where I'm making the right choices 98% of the time and seeing the kgs drop on the scales.
I'm going to get there though, I'm on the right road now. It's started. My head is out of the sand. At last.
Anyway, I'm watching the latest season of Biggest Loser Australia online, and there's a woman on there with PCOS which I was really excited to see, she's gone on the show to lose weight so she can conceive. I'm a bit worried though, as would love to follow along with her journey, but she's in the bottom two. So I will have to watch episode two now to make sure she doesn't get booted out!
The Biggest Loser Aus 5 - Episode # 1 / Part 1
Uploaded by TBLAus5. - Check out other Film & TV videos.
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